WHEN LOVE ISN’T LOVE
Next time when you think of breaking her heart, this is what I want you to know:
1. That she is still going to smile, even without any spark in her eyes because she does not want to give you the satisfaction that you have destroyed her happiness. 2. She will have sleepless nights trying to find the answer as to why her love wasn’t enough for you. And when she doesn’t find it, she will dig into herself trying to find the answers. 3. And when she doesn’t find anything within her, she will resort to finding ways on being less alive. She will eat less, talk less, cry less. She will even stop taking any phone calls. She will stop arriving anywhere. 4. She will bury herself in her bed hoping that you are somewhere miserable as she is 5. She will learn that your life has been progressing just fine without her. 6. All of a sudden, a big chunk of nothingness will keep her busy from doing the things that once amplified her reason for being. 7. She will look at men with so much hate. Men will become a trigger to her insecurities. People that mistook her heart for a doormat. 8. She will stay up at night, holding conversations with the moon and the stars. And this might make her question her sanity at some point 9. She will not even notice herself fade away. How she would be becoming less herself. Looking into mirrors and not seeing you besides her will deliver her right at the front gates of loneliness. 10. She will notice how she has been drowning because you were a false anchor in her life, that she mistook you for a savior. How you broke her heart will be the ink she will use, to write her testimony with. 11. She doesn’t know it yet, but she will thank you one day for showing her that this world is filled with flawed human beings full of vain promises and incapable of loving anyone else, sometimes even themselves. 12. This is the lesson she would need to take away from her heartbreak and learn how to love herself, ‘always, all ways’. 13. When she finally heals, when closure hands back her smile, she will somehow see how you were just a vessel that carried out God’s will in her life.
14. She won’t blame you anymore because she will be filled with so much pity for your soul. How you have this love thing figured all wrong.
15. She cant blame you for not being able to love her when you are still yet to fall in love with yourself. Only then, you might understand what Love is.
